Dissected:: CHAPTER 2: Rivalry with Love For the Chapter 1 “ The day I was told you will not survive this .. that is the day I lost my will to live. This may be the most destructive feeling I ever had in my whole life but this is what you do to me. You make me weak, dependent and I am not unhappy about it.” Reading this part of the letter, Kousalya threw it away. She doesn’t want to give up. She wants to survive and be the happiest woman alive lying in the arms of her love. But his notes, messages and letters like these, which he sends through emails, texts and hospital staff makes her increasingly paranoid. His acceptance of her death and willingness to kill self for her boils her up so much that she wants to rip his heart out and question, “ Don’t you love me enough to encourage me survive this? Don’t you see that you are weakening me with this jibber jabber? Can’t you understand that living with you and only with you is what I did for the past 30 years a